To My Nine-Year-Old Self by Helen Dunmore
Ever wondered what you'd say to your younger self? Dunmore's poem tackles this exact scenario, creating a dialogue between adult and child that's both touching and brutally honest.
The poem opens with "You must forgive me" - immediately setting up the guilt many adults feel about losing their childhood spirit. The speaker contrasts her nine-year-old self's fearlessness and agility with her current careful, damaged state. Where the child would "rather leap from a height than anything," the adult now worries about "a bad back or a bruised foot."
Juxtaposition runs throughout the poem - the child's carefree morning jumps from windows versus the adult's aches and pains. The speaker remembers shared dreams that were "as fresh... as white paper to write it on," symbolising the blank potential of childhood that gets filled with life's complications.
The poem's tone shifts from nostalgic to protective as darker realities emerge. What starts as innocent memories of "sherbet lemons" and "ice-lolly factories" gradually reveals sinister undertones - men in cars targeting children, hidden fears, and the loss of innocence.
Key Insight: The poem uses conditional tense ("I'd like to say we could be friends") to show the impossible distance between childhood and adulthood, even within the same person.
The final image of the child "peeling a ripe scab... to taste it on your tongue" perfectly captures childhood's fearless curiosity while metaphorically representing how we'll later "taste" life's painful changes. The speaker chooses not to "cloud your morning," preserving the child's ecstasy of concentration and innocent wonder.